I’ve had this blog for just over 3 years now.
For those of you who’ve been following it since the beginning, I thank you greatly! It truly means the world to me that you’ve stuck around and supported me for so long. And for those of you who are newer followers, I thank you greatly as well.
At first, it was so easy to think of what to do with this blog; I would use it for weekly posts that followed my journey through life and what I was learning, and I would share them with whoever wanted to read. I began at 15, a sophomore in highschool, and most of you know the story from there about what happened when I went away for awhile and why I decided to come back as a recent graduate whose life is filled with changes and adventures right now (if you don’t know the story but would like to, check out my past post! It’s called “What’s Next?”).
Well, as just mentioned, I realized shortly after coming back that keeping up with this blog every week was not going to be as easy as it was when I started it in highschool, and that it was going to take me awhile to learn how to balance everything in my new life. When I started this blog, I only had this, my journals, and my social media accounts as a way of sharing my writings. Now, I have all of that, plus another weekly blog, and I’m having trouble figuring out what belongs where sometimes.
Another challenge I’ve been facing is trying to balance it all with work (I work two jobs, and my schedule can get pretty full sometimes), and trying to figure out what’s next for my life now that all that I’ve ever known is so different. But even with that, the Lord has always given me the words and the time just enough to get me through week by week as long as He’s wanted me to do everything.
Which brings me to my biggest reason for wondering about what I should do with this blog….
I’m wondering if maybe God’s telling me to step back. For real this time, and not just me deciding it.
It’s not at all that I feel like He wants me to stop sharing my writings all together! Just maybe that I need to pull back a bit on this way of sharing my writings specifically. I’ve been thinking and praying about it a LOT, and I think He’s opened many doors for me to continue weekly writing on my Letters of Light blog, and to keep doing my blog-like posts on my Instagram… but I’m thinking that’s where my full attention needs to be in this season. And I would still share on here when something happens that I want to make a long post on, or when I feel led to/have the time to! But I’m thinking that I’m not supposed to be doing it all all of the time anymore. I’ve been so confused about where God wants me to go, and what He wants me to focus on, because I’m passionate about so many different things, and I’m so excited about spreading the Gospel, connecting with others, and sharing the story of what God has done and is doing in my life!!… But I feel like He’s telling me, as He did Martha in the Bible, “Jaléna… You’re focused on so many things, but only One thing is necessary”.
I’m learning that, even if you have various gifts, passions, and abilities, it doesn’t mean that you have to do it all. We are to be still and know that He is God. When He opens a door, we should by all means walk through it!… but we shouldn’t force open doors just because they were open in the past, or because we think it’s what should be open. I’m learning this a day at a time, and I’m excited to see what else He desires to teach me in this new season. I’m so thankful for all the times I’ve been sharing weekly on this blog, and I can’t wait to see what He has in store for the future.
Thank you all, and I’ll see you around! Be sure to subscribe if you’d like to be notified immediately whenever I post next!
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